marți, 3 ianuarie 2023

The Queen, Episode 8, ‘Souvenirs, Novelties, Party Tricks…Try This One, This Will Make You Very Popular’…from Top Secret http://realini.blogspot.com/2022/02/unique-in-world.html?q=unique+in+the+world

 

The Queen, Episode 8, ‘Souvenirs, Novelties, Party Tricks…Try This One, This Will Make You Very Popular’…from Top Secret http://realini.blogspot.com/2022/02/unique-in-world.html?q=unique+in+the+world

 

 

Perhaps I never recovered from the shock of hearing that I am in the car with the most beautiful woman in the realm, The Queen of Beauty, officially registered as that – with the benefits and the obligations, the latter part being something I tried to take on, and getting involved in the legal shenanigans was wrong on some fronts, it involved paying some bills, encouraging the view that I am a sort of member of the support team, for quite a while the only one, and then leading , or helping prompting one crisis where she acts as if I am the humble assistant, when calling the Bulgarian holder of the Beauty Pageant rights to let him know she is available to fuck (in my perverse mind of that moment) and then getting slapped for the offense (it is so comforting to know nobody is reading this really, and hence there are no implications over this, but just in case there is a thought out there, let me repeat that all similarities between personages here and real persons are purely coincidental or whatever the legalese is over fiction and no connection with reality) eventually it is one of the reasons for the final parting and something to both sooth (it was not all inexplicable and undeserved in other words) and lament over, how could I be such a goddamn idiot and blow it all to smithereens with my foolishness…

 

It seems as a high point, something to brag about, which may be subconsciously the point of all this, no matter how small the audience, non-extant really, there is the notion that somebody out there might find about what a great, enticing chap I have been (chump would be one other word for it) when even the royalty has wanted to consort with me, if briefly and who knows to what end, now this is another purpose of all this scribbling, to see if a significance, some lost meaning does not jump up from the pages…if you are here, and see sense, please share it so that I have my own epiphany, find that The Man Upstairs really wanted me to launch this young lady on her path and let us say that her public, if there is one, has to thank me for a small contribution I would have made to her accomplished performances, if any

The downside of the zenith reached with this good looking princess is that once the peak of the mountain is reached, then it is all downhill and what is there to compare with the Reine – the antidote for the anticlimax of reaching a peak and the finding the aftermath daunting, maybe even adverse could be found in the works of Tal Ben-Shahar http://realini.blogspot.com/2015/03/the-pursuit-of-perfect-by-tal-ben-shahar.html who insists that we have to enjoy the ride on the mountain and not concentrate on the ‘ultimate goal’ – he mentions the example of the one who is focused on reaching a top position and he endures with the idea that after some time, reward is coming (yes, there is much to say from Delayed Gratification and the Marshmallow Experiment) and then we see the fellow advancing gradually, until the age when somebody steps into the office and says it is time to retire and the revelation is that he kept struggling to the limit where it has all been just an endurance game…

Tal Ben-Shahar offers the hamburger models for the various errors we commit, from the nihilists who care nothing about present or future, to the extreme hedonists, who would rather have the most intense joy now, regardless of the post prandial effects of overstuffing too much on the plate, and we have to find the Aristotelian Golden Mean http://realini.blogspot.com/2021/03/the-golden-platinum-rules-and-crown.html on each side of virtue, you have vice, and in this particular case, to concentrate too much on an elusive goal for sixty years in the future is just as wrong as not caring what tomorrow brings

 

The peak reached then is in sharp contrast with the bottom of the sea – in some interpretation of the spouse, who affirms with conviction that I am a good for nothing leach, lazy bastard, parasite, mad man and much more – where I lay now, as guardian of the geese, with no friends, though one is resurrected in some form, after quarrelling last year, when I disagreed with his laxitude towards a party I hate (which in the meantime has formed an alliance with the one I support and they govern together now) now we are talking again and maybe we reestablish as in Casablanca http://realini.blogspot.com/2017/04/casablanca-with-humphrey-bogart-and.html the ‘beginning of a new (old) friendship’

Looked at from the other, let us say opposite side, I was just an accident, somebody who had to be there in the beginning of the education process, stumbled on and then maybe used for a while, on the way to the top – Stumbling On Happiness is a classic of psychology by Harvard Professor Daniel Gilbert http://realini.blogspot.com/2013/06/stumbling-on-happiness-by-david-gilbert.html and it demonstrates how we are not happy with the things we think will make us so, there are a number of Myths, one would be the California or Pacific Island move myth, the notion that if we were to move to one of those blessed places, we would be so happy, and instead, we suffer from the phenomenon called Hedonic Adaptation

 

She would remember the name, for it is so peculiar, the question might be what does she associate it with, were it to be said in front of her – indeed, one later incident could have stigmatized the bearer forever, since I think I remember one would be actress, aspiring probably at the time, telling me of a scene happening at the theater, between rehearsals, where this other student in acting tells a story with me as protagonist and villain: she had had sex with me, following a trip to Snagov, on the tiny, two-people boat to the island where some legends would have the source for the Dracula myth, Vlad Tepes, buried and then after the mesmerizing trip into a wondrous landscape, she performed felatio and I engaged in cunilingus, so some days or weeks after this, she wants me to take her to this spot near Rossetti, then to some other and on and on, looking for the lover, or man she wanted and could not find, until it got very late and we stopped in the parking lot (then there was one, now it is a tramway line there) and I said this is the end of the journey for me, unless we have the ‘friends with benefits’ treatment, for I had worked as her driver and provider of logistics, Audi and guard (as in the German shepherd was on board, but then he always was) and now she should show her appreciation…

Alternatively, maybe not, but then I was too tired to move, if I did not get a ‘massage with happy ending’ – this is just a manner of speaking, for though the role of massage and just plain touching is key, studies have shown that we need this, indeed, it is mentioned in the Tal Ben-Shahar courses at Harvard, I have always refused when possible, the ads that ask for money for this type of interaction, and opt for the sex when available, forget the massage happy finale – my share of the benefits, then I will no longer provide transportation and just jump in my bed…

 

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